Go out the window

"Life was fun
Life was great
Til I made my big mistake
Oh no it'll never happen to me
Life was short
And life was sweet
I was thinking as I hit the street
I could hardly beleve
I could scarcely conceive
But I had gone out the window
I had gone out the window
I had gone out the window" -violent femmes

Fifteen years ago I didn't think much of what this song was about. Now I can't stop thinking about it. You may be surprised to find that throughout my life I have considered suicide. The only problem is I can't stand pain of any kind, so inflicting it upon my self just seems impossible. But still, the thought of the easy way out, the escape of it all, I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought about it when times were rough. When there seemed to be no answer at all. When death was the only escape. Isn't that what the enemy wants? For us to just give up. Give up on God, give up on ourselves?

"She was fine
She looked great
And so we made our big mistake
I swear I swear I swear
It'd never happen to her
But the pavement knocked her head around
When she hit the solid concrete ground
From 30 flights above
And she was thirty something loving nothing
Gone out the window
She had gone out the window
She had gone out the window" -violent femmes

It's a gruesome image but it gets the point across. "thirty something loving nothing". How many people in their thirties or at any age just feel empty, loveless? If only everyone could know the love of God. How it fills us up and overflows from us.

"He was smart he was wise
He'd profoundly philosophize
Empathy for all humanity
'til one day by an open window
There's a note that read
I've gone out the window - I'm dead
He said yes to life for all of his life
But then one day he said no
I gotta go out the window
We all go out the window" -violent femmes

Eventually we do all "go out the window". We do not stay in these bodies forever, but we can live forever. No, I'm not talking about vampires or some miracle fountain of youth. I'm talking about living through Jesus. "He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him." -John 3:36

"Catch me I am falling
Catch me I am calling
Catch me we are falling
Catch me we are calling" -violent femmes

I don't know who the violent femmes want to be caught by but for me, I want God to catch me. I know that if I call on Him, He will hear me and He will catch me.

So what does all this mean? Sometimes life sucks. Sometimes we feel defeated and had rather die than deal with our situations. We just want to crawl into a hole and dissapear. But we don't have to do that. God will not give us anything we can not handle. He is here for us if we call on Him. Death is for satan. In Jesus we do not die, we have everlasting life, which unlike this life, will not be full of trials and tribulations. Satan will not be there to try and destroy us. God is stronger than anything the enemy can throw at us. We may not be able to defeat these troubles on our own, in fact we can not defeat them. We are not strong enough, but God is. He sends His Holy Spirit to work through us, to carry us through hard times. To catch us when we are falling and hear us when we are calling. We may all go out the window one day but where we go is up to us. I believe in Jesus. I have been blessed and I know He is real. Do you believe?