Crying out to God

Ever since I became pregnant with my second son I have been battling depression. It was a hard pregnancy and even though I love my sons more than anything I can't shake my depression. I have everything in the world to be happy about and I can't be happy. I see a Doctor (who is a Christian) and take my prescribed medicine which helps but I still feel like I'm in a hole. I cry out to God constantly for help. I wonder what is wrong with me. Negative thoughts invade my brain daily. I wonder if God has stopped listening to my prayers but I know that is just the devil trying to break me down. I must say he is doing a good job of it. Making me doubt myself, and even hate myself. I do know that God is there and in the back of mind I know he is listening and working in His own way. But that doesn't really make me feel better. I feel like a failure. A complete failure. My family is wonderful and they help me a lot but I still can't shake this feeling. It's like nothing in the world can bring me out of it. I feel selfish for constantly praying for myself like a baby crying out to God but I do not know what to do. Please pray for me. I am lost.

in regards...

Okay, in regards to my last blog, a very good friend mentioned what she couldn't stop thinking about when she read it. What about those husbands who don't believe? Well, that is mentioned in the book as well. Unfortunatley alot of our husbands aren't as religious as we might like for them to be, some not at all. As women we often think that we can change our men but that is just not how it works. We can't change them, only God can do that. It is our job to pray for them and set the best example that we can. Let God's love work through us. Now that raises another question, this one stems from my own experience. What if we aren't setting a good example? I mean I try but I have a very short temper and even shorter patience. How am I supposed to show my husband the glory of God if I can't even feel it myself? My husband is a good man, he goes to church if I ask him but he isn't the most spiritual man. I would like for both of us to grow in the Lord and I feel that it is up to me to get the wheels in motion. This isn't so easy when I'm getting mad at every little thing and being so emotional. So what do we do in this situation? All I know to do is to keep praying and studying God's word and working on myself. No one said this life is easy, if they did they must have been doing something wrong. I believe God gives us trials so that we may come out a better person. And the enemy gives us trials to try to break us down. Either way it isn't easy. We just have to trust in the Lord and follow his word to whatever avail. I still have a  lot of work to do on myself. So whether it's your husband or yourself just keep praying.